My graduation in a year

I'm sorry that I haven't written a blog in a super long time but my life has been the worst thing ever lately. I have papers due in each of my three English classes and one of my papers is a 12 page research paper with an annotated bibliography and a very detailed outline. My other two papers aren't much better but one of them is a group project so I don't have to stress out all by myself. Anyway, on to what my title is about, this semester a lot of my friends are graduating; sadly yours truly has one more year. I'm a little happy about that cause it will give me time to think about what my graduation will actually be like, I'm worried about all the family drama that will happen. Since non of you know my family (except from what I say on here) I feel that I can tell you all about it. So, my older sister hasn't talked to our dad in about eight years and she hasn't talked to my mom is about one year. I'm not going to go into details but let me just say that they really hurt her emotionally. Another drama is that my mom and dad haven't really talked to each other or even been in the same room for more than five minutes since the year 1999 (when they got their divorce). I don't know how they will feel in the same room along with my step mom who used to be best friends. Also, there's my grandma who has decided to tell us grand kids about everything horrible thing our dad has ever done even though I think half of it is fabricated. I think it will be interesting to have her, my dad, and my step mom all in the same room. Every time I think about it I get a little nervous about what will happen and I'm not prepared for it. I was talking to my friend and he told me that I need to stand to them if they decide to create drama (i.e. ask them to leave if they create drama) and he said that he would hold my hand the whole time; I need that reassurance. We were talking and we both think that I should hire either a bouncer, security, or a referee for my graduation party. Maybe I just won't have a party although my older sister said that I shouldn't let the family decide what I do on my special day. I just don't know what to do! A part of me just thinks that I should not walk across the stage and just have my diploma mailed to me. Then another part of just thinks that I should suck it up and see what happens. I wish there was a little voice that tells me what will happen depending on what direction I choose. Anyway, that's all for now. Any of my friends who read this blog (if you still read it), please tell me any words of wisdom that you might have. It will be greatly appreciated.

Hypothetical Questions

One of my teachers ask the class these questions and I wanted to pose them to my blog followers (if there are any out there). There is no right or wrong answer.

1) For a one month, all expense paid trip to anywhere would you pull the wings off of a beautiful butterfly?

2) Would you go 2 months without proper hygiene (no teeth brushing/showering/etc) for $20,000 and you can't tell anyone what you're doing?

3) Would you go swimming with a group of friends if your only option was a nude beach?

4) What would you do if you found out that your best friend was selling drugs?

5) If God told you in a dream to move to the Red Sea and become a fisherman, what would you do?

6) If you are in a relationship but you know that there's nothing in the relationship anymore and you want to break up but your partner said that they will kill themself if you break up, what would you do?

7) Would you put your healthy pet down for $50,000?

8) In one word, describe the most important thing in a relationship.

9) Would you lie under oath for your best friend?

10) If you could choose the sex and physical appearance of your unborn baby, would you?

11) Would you want to know the exact date of your death?

12) If all jobs paid the same amount what job would you want? Try to answer in one word.

Valentine's Day 2012

Well, I haven't written anyhting in a while and since today is Valentine's Day, I figured that I should write something. Btw, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! And for those who don't like this holiday, HAPPY SINGLES AWARENESS DAY! On a different note, I've always hated this day and spending it as a single person is not my idea of fun. However, I was talking to one of my friends and he helped me to realize that I can either wallow in my own self pity or I can take this day and embrace it. So, I woke up early and got all fancy for this holiday; I'm even wearing lipstick (something that I haven't worn in who knows how long). I'm not going to let this day get me down and I'm going to be happy for all the couples that I see walking around today. So, what are you doing for this holiday? And for my facebook friends, I am not going crazy with all that chocolate and other things that you saw in my picture. I am taking my time and being responsible.

On a more exciting note, I'm applying to go to CAmbridge, England for a study abroad thing this summer. I'm so excited about it and a little nervous because the cost is more than I thought it would be. Fingers crossed that I can get financial aid. I have never been out of the country before so this trip will be new and exciting. I'm a little hesitant about applying but I'm still going to do it. I really want to go and it will be a great experience for me. The trip is through ASU and I have a friend that goes there so I'm trying to convince him to go also. He says that he really wants to but he's more hesitant than I am. This is the same friend that helped to realize that I shouldn't wallow in my self pity. I really hope that he goes and not just because I want him to but because he deserves to do soemthing fun and have an adventure. Also, once he does this, he'll know that he can do it again and go on many more adventures (something that every writer should do which is what he wants to be). Anyway, that's all for now. Enjoy this lovely holiday and remember, the chocolate gets marked down starting tomorrow. HAHAHA!!!